This seems like such an easy thing…I mean priorities…EASY, our kiddos. Well, sometimes there are other priorities that are almost important and things that God has also called us to do…soooo here is my issue…
I NEED to spend more time on education with my children this year.
No my kids aren’t behind (well I have a few who can’t read, but they are taking their time and just now getting interested).
I do believe that education can happen in more than an 8-3 setting. I do believe that play and exploring are part of normal education.
BUT I want (desire, need) to spend more time. I don’t mean more hours a day, just more time. The kids finish up “formal” school work activities pretty quickly each day so that really isn’t an issue, but what did become an issues was other priorities.
This past “school year”, I spent a lot of time on our churches food panty and everything related to that food pantry. I teach Sunday school and Childrens Church and Wednesday night activities at the church. I DO NOT want to give any of that up.
I am the director of that food pantry. We have no reliable volunteers and the few we have are too overwhelmed to handle the tasks that I do (believe me I have tried). We are only open one day a week, but there is also a clothes closet involved and well it takes maintenance (more than you can imagine…well take your house multiply it by 10 or 20 if you have a small house and those are the clothes you deal with…now take a 3x3 closet (its bigger than that but…) and now you can see what I am dealing with). There is the ordering of food, the managing of donations, the maintenance of client information. HOWEVER I love it. It is what I am suppose to be doing, but so are my children.
So now, I have taken on a part time job … it helps to pay the bills, but it is also stressful. I work from home (kind of), there is a lot of travelling and dealing with adult children (these are adults who refuse to accept responsiblity and can’t seem to make decisions) and its just a lot of stress. I want to see this organization succeed, but if they keep acting like fools…IT AINT HAPPENIN’!! I am the executive director of this organization.
So…HOW am I suppose to do all this?
I feel a ton of stress!
I have prayed and honestly I don’t believe I am suppose to give any of this up.
I really don’t have anyone to help. Hubby is home, but him picking up the load for anything is a no go.
My oldest son is going back to public school this year (10th grade), his choice. I know that will add in another set of stressors because I don’t care for public school education, but I am allowing him this because he is a great kid, great student and this is what he wants (I am okay with that).
My oldest daugther is 22, has Down syndrome, is great help around the house when she remembers she is an adult and not a 4yo having a hissy fit.
Then there is the rest…4 more. Great kids!
I need someone to just talk to me. I know you won’t really have any answer, especially if I am not willing to let anything go, but maybe just someone to tell me that I am not out of my mind and that it really is doable…will help.
OH add in…my mother. LOL! 66 years old, lives 4 hours away…has “boyfriend” that is 30 and a total 'not a good person". I have ulcers and have put on 10 lbs since she decided they were a “thing”.
Sanity if faultering, ulcers are building, mind is fluttering away!